The same people, now felt different. You were my confidante but now i just felt that you don't understand me anymore.With you there will always be laughter but the laughter now felt bitter to me. i am punished for loving someone. i always am. cant anyone just understand? no matter who i love, i am always punished. use me, play me, laugh at me, what else can you ask from a friend right? if the ones you love don't understand you, what more can you expect from a stranger. What used to be a medicine, now is becoming a poison. the same thing that once healed you, now kills.Standing in the middle of a crowd, i still feel lonely. Hanging around with friends, i still feel unloved. the weather displays my feelings. Many times sitting with you i felt like  bursting into tears but i held back. what difference does it makes even if you know? you would either pat me and said that its going to be okay or ignore me. i really don't feel like being with you. just feel like surrounding myself with my bears that hug me to sleep comforting my without words especially when waterfall happens. painful to love someone, no matter who.