i smoke? if u noe me well den ull noe if i do or i dont. if i smoke so? if i don smoke so? in bof cases u siriusly don nid to noe.

wat i ask is always relevent to my life most of e time n sometimes i ask cause i care bout u alrite so don ask me hu ask me to ask ok?

actly today nth happen cause i woke up at 1.30 in e afternoon. pathetic kan? cant help it tooo tired hahahaha btw siva remember ah tuesday

lets c if its e same hahaha. u noe wat i mean. btw it assured me dat amani is atleast ok  4 tonite wen i koll her just now. 

jgn sedih kay. if dis help u, i lost my gradmader den bof grandfaders (same time) den my step-gandmader den my anader step- grandmader. all these was continuous my darl n so i noe how it feels. smile like e sun kays?

btw wen noeing bout it, reality hits my face so hard dat i jus cant acept it. loosing a person will nvr stop in life n wat if my dearest grandmader suddenly go? dats smth dat i can nvr accept n take in all my life. i don wan dis to hapen again.

loosing somebody is like loosing smth u love so much but e hurt is soooo much deeper den dat n it reli feels like u jus wan to jump down n end ure life rather den go thru e pain. der will nvr b a person dat can replace her not even him

hu wuld pamper me n take my side if she goes? hu wuld b e 1 to take care of me if shes gone? hu to kiss b4 i go out? how if i miss her? hu wuld fill my bottle wen i go to skool?hu am i suppose to say "i lap u" to if shes gone? how am i supose to cope wen shes gone? hu to wake me up in e mornin? i luv her deeper den everybody in dis effing world. so hope to go b4 her so i don nid to go thru dat pain again after loosing bof grandfaders. i jus cant go thru dat again NO NO NO!!!!

loosing a person makes it hard 4 me to love a person cause im soo scared to loose dem. pls 4give me if im so hard on u ppl. i try not to care bout ppl but i jus cant. if i love u den i tend to be very defensive bout u. fyi.