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my heart aches for you
my heart searches for you
my heart beats for you
my heart yearns for you
my heart break for you
my heart waits for you

my body yearns for your touch
my body yearns for your warmness
my body yearns for your hug
my body yearns for your gentleness

my conscience wants to let you go
my conscience wants you to go
my conscience wants me to stop loving you

my eyes always search for you
my eyes always yearns for you

my soul yearns for you

so baby please come to me
no matter what i will be right here waiting

why mus i always love smone so much dat it jus hurts? wat do i reli wan? do i wan u to noe? or i jus wan to keep it a secret? feelings inside r jus too mixed up dat i jus smtimes cant cope. smtimes only 2 ppl can understand dis. y mus e person i luv isnt hu i shud b lovin? y is evertin jus rong? till wen mus i sacrifice 4 happiness of oths?jus hug me pls. mayb silence is beter den saying anytin. pls jus smone hug me n assure me dat everytins gonna b ok even if u r unsure. im loosing everytin so pls don makeme loose u. hug me wif ure warmth n love dat u hav. smtimes i jus get ashamed 4 letting u hear me cry over n over again. pls don leave me now. if u wanna leave pls aft evrytin gets beter.
i reli nid u rite now to jus b by my side. im not asking u to share my burden or help me do smth bout all dis. im jus asking u to be by my side n b there 4 me. wen i say i hate you, i didnt meant it. it was jus out of frustration. even if i say it in a language u don understand

my life suddenly getting so bad. idk y. so dissapoimted in ssooo many people lately. felt soo betrayed? mayb e word not strong enuf. felt lyke ppl jus cant b trusted. felt like im jus there for ppl to take advantage of. im not really needed. nobody needs me. dats wat i had known all e while but... dis is wat u get aishah for trusting ppl n believe dat smone actlly needs u. one by one ppl start making me fel so dissapointed so unwanted. mayb my role in dis world is to make oth ppl happy n suffer myself to death. i jus have to accept e fact dat im jus im useless rubbish dat hav to b discard asap. y do i keep sacrificing myself 4 oth ppl's happiness? im like a punching bag. like a pen. i don worth much. im worth 20 cents. wen ppl needs me dey will take me but wen dey get a beter 1 or don nid me anymore, dey jus push me away. mayb im not even like a pen. im worth nth at all. don worry ppl. ill leave u all also. i wont b in contact wif u anymore. i wont burden u wif my probs again. b happy without me k ppl? if anybody else do not wan me pls tell me so i would not approach u. ppl if u tink wat u do is e best 4 u den ill support u even if i hate it.