FUCK LAH

wth is rong wif all dis ppl? dey don wan to study den get lost lah fuck lah u ppl. u all onli noe how fuck oth ppl's life onli. u wanna go down den go down by ureself lah don bring oths wif u. i reli nid mr lim 4 my physics kay!!!!! u all don like him so? idc! i don give a damn!!! i wan to hav distictions u noe!! u all wan to blacken ure future, go ahead im not stopping u but don bring me down. n siallah 1st physics den social studies. wtf?! n to oths im asking stupid questions but having 2 ppl blocking my view n r all over each oth n talking across me is e reason y. i was even called out to c misschua after lesson bout dat. wth do u tink im feeling?!?!?!?! i don tink its worth my holidays to spend time wif mfbs like u ppl n still nid to cock up $2. spending time wif ppl dat r currrently destrying my life by not allowing tchers to teach.

pls lah everybody hav probs but don nid to act like an asshole lah. tink too highly of ureself rite? wat type of leader r u? u talk wen tchers r talking n in e end can still say we all not supportive?wtf?! everybody else also hav sooo much probs. idc ah bout u ppl anymore n btw my parents even disallow me to go 4 e stupid  bbq.

so sorie to ppl dat i hurt 2day because of my bad mood.  luv ya all

amirah sayang!! tank u sooo much 4 listening to me complain bout my suckish life n some how advise me. it was nice to noe dat someone had been in my shoes n understands me wen nobody else can understand my situation.

amani u noe evertin bout my probs but sometimes u don understand wat im gg thru cause u ureself had never been thru. so some tings r jus so hard to tell ya.

btw today i talked to him!!!! ouh my gosh tkleh angkat babe!!! bleh pengsan aku hahaha. amani kau ehk tk baik seh dah lah aku ngah gabra abeh kau tingalkan aku sorang. lagi tkleh angkat smpai aku tersalah salah ckp kau!!!

anw i luv u all n hope we can be frens 4 my whole lifetime.  ahhh i jus luv u all btw lina sori tk spend time ngan kau. ill make up 4 dat soon kays? ilyt

i smoke? if u noe me well den ull noe if i do or i dont. if i smoke so? if i don smoke so? in bof cases u siriusly don nid to noe.

wat i ask is always relevent to my life most of e time n sometimes i ask cause i care bout u alrite so don ask me hu ask me to ask ok?

actly today nth happen cause i woke up at 1.30 in e afternoon. pathetic kan? cant help it tooo tired hahahaha btw siva remember ah tuesday

lets c if its e same hahaha. u noe wat i mean. btw it assured me dat amani is atleast ok  4 tonite wen i koll her just now. 

jgn sedih kay. if dis help u, i lost my gradmader den bof grandfaders (same time) den my step-gandmader den my anader step- grandmader. all these was continuous my darl n so i noe how it feels. smile like e sun kays?

btw wen noeing bout it, reality hits my face so hard dat i jus cant acept it. loosing a person will nvr stop in life n wat if my dearest grandmader suddenly go? dats smth dat i can nvr accept n take in all my life. i don wan dis to hapen again.

loosing somebody is like loosing smth u love so much but e hurt is soooo much deeper den dat n it reli feels like u jus wan to jump down n end ure life rather den go thru e pain. der will nvr b a person dat can replace her not even him

hu wuld pamper me n take my side if she goes? hu wuld b e 1 to take care of me if shes gone? hu to kiss b4 i go out? how if i miss her? hu wuld fill my bottle wen i go to skool?hu am i suppose to say "i lap u" to if shes gone? how am i supose to cope wen shes gone? hu to wake me up in e mornin? i luv her deeper den everybody in dis effing world. so hope to go b4 her so i don nid to go thru dat pain again after loosing bof grandfaders. i jus cant go thru dat again NO NO NO!!!!

loosing a person makes it hard 4 me to love a person cause im soo scared to loose dem. pls 4give me if im so hard on u ppl. i try not to care bout ppl but i jus cant. if i love u den i tend to be very defensive bout u. fyi.

last nite i found smth out n shld i say its expected? hhhmmmm...... no idea

i was shocked but not shocked ahhh nvm if u understand den understand but if u don den wat am i suppose to do?

e confession was hard n i was blushing n lmao wen confessing to my dear bout my dear hahaha

ehk amirah i noe u noe i noe haahah

today woke up at 7 study den go hq take koto  come home ader kenduri sia like f***

amirah malu ah aku hahaha

rmbr e possibilities?

today was ok in skool

we had pet rocket!!!! had soooo much funnnn

der was 1 time syafiqah asked me "Aishah wat's ure pet name?"

i tink 4 a while but nth came to mind so i jus said "ummmm.... pet"

n dey were laughing hahaha

btw i translated an english song to malay hahaha. u noe e rihanna song, rehab ?

sing dat in malay! i tell u wat to sing.. look below....... ouh yah i translate it myself n 1st part only

sayang, sayang

bila kita pertama bertemu

tk pernah ku rasa sekuat ini

kau seperti kekasih

dan kawan baik ku

semua dibungkus jadi satu

dengan reben kat atas

dah tu jer hahahahhahaaha

bb ppl i wan go to sleep

 

u ungrateful biatch

kau ingat kaus saper? stakat mk aku jer tkder apaper lain tau. hu e hell kau nk impress? impress laki sendri sudah lah nie nk gi impress laki org nk gi impress mk mertua org. mk mertua sendri kau marah2, mk mertua org kau nk impress. terbiat per ah? 

kau ckp aku kurangajar. nengok cermin ah. kau tuuu! kau tk respect laki kau, kau tk respect mkmetua kau, kau expet aku nk respect kau? gth ah ehk buang mase aku jer. mk mcm aper kau? ajar anak sendri jadi kurang ajar. 

ure the worst wife, mother and daughter in law

fuck off lah sia

wow i haven been oning  e comp 4 2 days. yesterday only 4 a while 4 imp matters.

woke up at 4 am den sleep till 7, pray den idk y i polished my boots den ask mum 4 money n 4 e first she jus give me wooh! den wake up at 11 n fond 2 smses. from j.f. im sooo sori joshua. den mit amani at ws n return books den mit e oth at skool den mit my "beloved" senior at casuarina pri der n farah was actly 1/2 h late!!! omg!!!

bottom line i reli had soooo much funso siva u reli miss so much fun n amirah was crazy cause she was lonely pasal khalis was mia n farah was 1/2hrs late.k ah i wan 2 sleep somemore. tired tau jln from skool to near myhaus den patah alik. e all reli bonded haha. btw amirah tukar number baru ah

i still remember wen i go for audition to ing wen i was primary 2 n below is the song

bintang kecil di langit yang biruuuu

sama-sama menghias angkasaaaa

aku ingin terbang ke tempatmuuu

ditempat kau beradaaaa

but i didnt succeed cause i was too shy

AAAAAMMMIIIRRRAAAHHH!!!

TANK YOU SOOO MUCH 

FOR E CALCULATOR!!!

WITHOUT YOU,

CONFIRM MATI

HAHAHAH

ILYSM!!!

i suddenly had all these poems made up in my head so i wan to share wif u all

 Roses are red,                                                                                                                                                and the sky is blue.                                                                                                                                    No wonder you're so great,                                                                                                                          you're YOU!!

 When there's a shooting star,                                                                                                                         it's time to make a wish.                                                                                                                               Even if you're charred,                                                                                                                                   in my eyes you're still my peach.

 Daimonds are girl's bestfriend,                                                                                                                     but every guy is her dream.                                                                                                                          I really hope we are more than friends,                                                                                                      cause in my cake, you're the cream.

how? ok? not bad? or very bad? i tink u all noe hu im talking bout rite? if u don, den its 4 me to noe n 4 u find out. hahaha

such a wonderful day haha had amani n rekk over to my haus 2 study phy n chem  but we had hidden agenda, jeng jeng jeng haha. nth lah we made a big cake n strawberry milkshake. all instucted by my fader. such a waste lina didnt come but wat 2 do, she wan 2 study wif atq.  dey had so much great food at my haus like kebab pie, mushroom soup, cupcakes, cakes, my cooking of nasi goreng, my grandmader's cooking and dey also had peachtea n strawbery milkshake all home-made by my family mmbrs. no wonder im lyke dis hahaha. dey also had 1st hand expirience on baking cake n also piping n icing e cake. btw happy maders day 4 my grandmader!!!

 must i say it? reli? haha im ssoooo glad all major papers r over except 3 sci ppr n dnt. e maths ppr 1 was alot easier than e ppr 2. more confidence in it n 4 e 1st time in history, i finish e whole  ppr in a given time. haahahahah

i jus luv u ppl

     tank u ah eh amani, jaga n surekka. lina kau pon tk baik uat bdh jer kasi drg kacau aku smpai cam tuu skali kat canteen. nk ckp tk suke, aku suke. nk ckp aku fed up, aku tk. senang kate aku paiseh giler tau. tapi tkper klau dier tanyer psl bende tuuu. aku akan ckp "yes apesal tkleh? ader law yg ckp aku tkleh suke kau? suke ati aku lah mk suke sape" k? k? best.

    fyi klau dier tk tanyer, aku tknk bilang. so klau dier tk tanyer, singapore tk akan ader snow. hahaha.

    suke ati korang lah ehk nk uat aper. aku trime jelah, dah takdir hahahaha

ders a reason y its in malay

i guess ders nvr been a day dat i nvr miss u n 2day just proves it. u shld noe how much i miss u. it reli feels like a thousand years since ive seen u. can we mit n talk like how we used to? or i shld jus luk at u from afar. but i noe deep down inside, u noe my attention had always been on u. wher ever u go, i can always spot u. i guess dat my speciality. hahaha

btw gudluck all of u 4 ure MYE!! do ure best. omg im still not prepared. ouh noooooo