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my partner for dining ettiqute is.... jeng jeng jeng...

AZREE FROM 4/9!!!!!!! WOOOH!!!!

very gentleman u noe!!! let me list down what the true gentleman did

1. e chicken was pathetic i cant cut through, so he cut a peice from his chicken and gave it to me!!!
2. he open up the bottle of chili sauce for me!!!
3. he actually waited for me to finish my main course and started my dessert b4 he even starts eating his dessert

 hmmm anytn else not, aluh the rest u all no nid to noe! hahaha. at the table was me n azree, mdm rozilla n azhar, sheng ming n e 4/1 guy(forgot his name sori). all of us only started toking wen mm rozilla started toking. hahaha. one of the topics was about dunman sec, azhar's dad, buffet, food and the mannerism of ppl. cool rite? so professional. haha

azree ty for being e best partner. haha

My tagboard is waaaay below if u nvr notice

u thought u noe me but u reli do not now how im feeling deep down inside. i can say how i feel bout everytin but some tings r jus not meant 4 u to noe cause i shy. haha.those of u hu noes den i hope u keep it a secret k?                                                                                                                                         but i promised myself wen u ask, then i confess. hahaha. like lina say if dat hapen, singapore will surely snow. so if it starts snowing in singapore dat means aishah confessed. hahahaah. io noe stupid rite.

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE MY FRIENDS NO MATTER WHAT. EVEN IF YOU HATE ME.

LOVE U ALL SO MUCH

wth?(tagboard at e bottom)

ehk im worried bout u. how r u? pls atleast sms or kol me. pls. im so worried sick bout u . again. pls do tell me if ure fone gets taken by ure parens or watever dat hapens to u. pls let me noe if ure atleast ok. u nid my help, u noe wat to do rite? anytime u can ask me 4 help. im der 4 u. pls jus sms me will do. tc. ly.

sometink i can nvr tolerate is ppl hurting my frens. smtimes i don mean to b mean but if u hurt my frens den ouh too bad ah! one more tink is y betray ppl wen dey start trusting u? stupid rite? wher e hell is ure noodle? in ure but? lastly is ppl taking oth ppl's trust 4 dem 4 granted. ppl r trying sooo hard 2 get ppls trust n u take e person's trust n did dat? a person's trust shuld b guarded by ure life like how a millionaire guard his money n diamonds. trust is smth hard to earn so pls use ure noodles n tink n do wat is appropriate kays?

btw watch dis! btw ders justin timberlake

am i heartless????

im soo sorry bout e letter. i noe i shld pervent dis from happening cause i noe how sad n stuff u will feel but as a fren i wuld have to break it to u no matter wat cause its for ure own good. i don wan u to keep destroying ure future like how u r doing now. if ders anyway i can kol u tell me yah. im sooo worried sick dat i don tink i can handle dis anymore. can we still b frens after wat i did? im full of guilt rite now but its for ure own good. idk lah fuck lah wif all dis problems.

another thing to e person yg prasan aku pangil kau lelaki tk guner, im so not apologising to yah cause in the 1st place not my fault. u weree 1 dat assume i kolled u dat. like mr lim n ms chua always say if u assume, uer making an ass out of u n me so yeah im not in e rong. tapi since kau dah terase n marah sgt kat aku smpai cam gini, i wuld jus say pls jgn terase. 

fuck lah all dis ppl n fuck all e problems dey bring tooo

my situation???

When I love you,

I want you.

Even if I can't get you,

atleast let me be there for you.

I want to let you go,

go far away from my life.

But my heart won't agree,

even if you're the worst choice.

since e skool started, i felt tat we r much apart n i think its e best as dis will allow my heart to rest n i  will take dis opportunity to kick u out of my heart n shut it for the rite one to come along one day. but dat does not mean u can hurt her like dat. u didnt kept ure promise to her n u tink i would trust u? go to hell yah. stop doing dis to ureself n jus b ureself ok? it wont hurt being ureself. im waiting for dat day to arrive. till den, jus consider dat our frenship had take sometime off. jus remember no matter what, ill always luv my frens n i do love u

k ah ehk i don wan to elaborate bout my day yesterday bcause some1 will get jelus if i do.

im waiting by e fone wif ure picture hanging on e wall(literally). btw its reli killing me waiting 4 ure reply. it sucks like hell bitch!!! cant u jus reply? fucker and btw ure gg outta ma life sucker hahaahhahaahah kat dlm dunier nie ader satu jer aku so too bad ah tkder penganti untuk aku and i also noe......

you are my sunshine

confirm in kindergarten u all got sing u r my sunshine rite? so listen to dis. its nicer but sounds uite sad uh. i luv it haha. gtg i hav to go to skool for first aid duty

kay pertame today is e day we celebrated sjab day n its ok luh not bad. luv it n appreciating it cause dis will b e last year tat ill b wearing n showing off my fav sjab uniform 4 e whole day in e skool. im e most proudest cadet u can ever find in all e universe. 

keduer i miss jaga being here wif us all. u might ask y i didnt kol her but everytime i kol her der will always b smth dat makes us hav to hang up n it sucks. miss disturbing her n iritating her cause she hav a nice reaction n she will always say "basket sia aishah".

ketiger i reli reli reli cant wait 4 cca n its siriusly killing me. ish i hate waiting.

yg last skali ntah asal aku rase kiter makin lamer makin jauh n is it pasal cause dat time we had no choice but to leave u alone 4 quite sometime? or cause were nth to u? ntah lah ehk oh yah n btw i jus felt dat we r drifting apart slowly n silently n it dosent feel good so pls kol me up one day wen ure free ok? ill always luv ya.

btw my tagboard is rite at e bottom

i siriusly cant get dis out of my head
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the best 1 ever hahaah

hhhmmm idk y but like amani said take it slow n steady n let time unfolds everything. tings always gets beter in time. so yah lets c wats gonna happen. btw ders so much tings dat i had jus uncovered but im jus telling u a little. first my mum is thinking if she shld transfer her job to KL. secondly my dad waiting to get a job in Bahrain. so idk how my family wld continue be as 1 but no worries ill b hapy no matter wat as i hav oth important tings to tink about.my frens happiness is more important den my own so if i can make u happy, tell me n ill do it.

u were like my north star at nite,

dat shows me the way wen im lost.

im so sorie bout dat nite,

hope our fenship will not lost.

ppl dance following the beat,

and always in the arms of their darlings.

im so sorie 4 wat i did,

cause i realise i had been confuse of my feelings.

aku dah decide hahaha maybekan e only ting yg tingal aku kene uat is jus sambong sukerkan dier n yg lagi 1 tu uat bdh jelah ehk. kiter kwn lagik best tkder bender2 complicated. hahahaha klau aku jelus ke aper ke diam jerlah ehk cam biase. k dah tu jer tkmao citer panjang2

hhmmm i siriusly cant wait for nex week hehehe but i wont b here in spore from saturday till wednesday den thursday go watch movie. no time to rest hahaha.  btw dats my baby cousin isnt she cute? haha btw she hav brown eyes if u can notice

                                                IT RELI LOOKS LIKE IT IS IN A FRAME                                              

haha today was nice. had nco meeting but only me amani xinyi n subha turn up e rest idk. we discuss n disscuss till we all r too tired to disscuss siriusly. i n subha came up with a nice punishment 4 e cadets dat will make dem louder n dier basic footdrill beter. hahaah. rite subha? it was fun n tiring n e same time but if we can do it den e cadets confirm can. after dat xinyi went home n we all went to downtowneast n ate mcdonald haha btw der was dis transformers show 4 e kids n we actly watch hahaa it was super fun. btw soo many ppl stare at me today no idea y. ouh yah saw sir in skool jus now n dats all.

ncoS N ex-ncoS N WHOEVER DAT WANTS TO TAG ALONG TO WATCH MOVIE WITH US ALL , IT WILL BE ON 25/6/09 IN OTH WORDS ITS ON THURSDAY KAY? ANYTHING KOL ME OR AMANI OK? TAKE CARE.

I N SUBHA WILL TEACH E OTH NCOS WEN SKOOL REOPENS KAY? BELOW IS E CHEER

ONE(CANT HEAR YOU)  

TWO(CAN BE LOUDER)

THREE(DATS BETER)

FOUR(ALTOGEDER NOW)

SJ SJ ALL THE WAY

WE LIKE IT HERE

WE LIKE IT HERE

WE FOUND OURSELVES A HOME

A HOME

A HOME SWEET HOME

WE GOT SJ SPIRIT

DEEP IN OUR HEARTS(3x)

WE GOT THE SJ SPIRIT

DEEP IN OUR HEART

SJ SPIRIT ALL E WAAAAYYY

kay ah ehk its written in malay 4 a reason. aku ader A n B. keblakangan nie aku ader confusion sikit on how i feel. wth ehk aku tlg A dptkan kwn aku tapi 4 some reason aku jelus to e max biler A tk abis2 suker tanyer pasal kwn aku tu. tapi at e same time aku masih sukerkan B. makin kiter dekat kan, makin syg aku kat si dektu. makin bnyk aku tau pasal kau, makin syg aku kat kau, makin aku nk tau lagi pasal kau, makin bahagier biler ngan korang duer. skarang aku tk tau saper aku lagik suke aku suker kau aku pon suker dier, aku suker dier lebih lamer dari aku kau tapi prasaan aku kat korang sedalam dier samer. hhhmmm uat bdh jer lah. let time uncover everytin. hahaha.

ncos!!!! lets go watch DRAG ME TO HELL!!! i reli wanna watch dat movie n if anybody else wan to tag along jus come ok? including e ex-ncos ah if u all wan. don wan i also dc hahahaha. lets make it nex week. u wan? if u wan to tag along can jus tell me in msn or contact me in anyway contactable. kay? bb tc

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i woke up at 4.30 in e morning jus to study 4 my ss wow!!!! is dat amazing or wat!!! hahaha... btw sori ppl but i so dont want to talk bout camp as ders jus too much memories dat i wan nobody to noe but if u noe den sssshhhhh kays? hahaha spent time wif my cliques at ws den do mt projek at E!Hub hahaha it was fun. btw i wan to thank miss soon amirah dina sabila for dat nite. u all actly knock out some sense out of me. kay from now on no more camp stuff. ehk amirah haha i like e 1st nite e most hahaha. btw i got darker. hahaha. ehk c how i n amani indulge in our own tub of ice-cream hehehehehe. muakkkk like hellll. no more ice-cream till after bnco. dats a promise i n amani made to ourselves. hahahaha ehk nurul kiter mmg giler ahk.

i luv all my frens n no matter wat ill always try my best to defend u from getting hurt even though it means dat i hav to get hurt, ders nth like seeing ure frens being happy. dats my investment for being happy. u happy, i happy but u sad,i also sad. i noe u all r great frens in ure own way n i hope to b ures too. im doing my best to b der 4 u wen u nid me. nvm if im only needed wen ure down but tossed to e side wen ure happy. atleast it shows dat u ppl r happy. ok ppl? anytin jus ask me for help n i do all i can to help u. i luv u guys to e core of my heart.

i realise dat all dis time i hav been in denial n some tings dat ive done reli showes me dat im in denial of myself. im always doing things oppositely from what im supose to be doing wen im in denial. some tings r jus too hard to acept like e day is coming closer now n is as close as ever dat i cld even smell it(amani u noe wat im talking bout).

idk y but everybody is suddenly far from my reach dis days n im feeling like a child dat all her toys has been taken away from her. outside im a cheerful, playful n nonsensical child but deep down inside im dying as silently as ever. i had always tell amani dat she shldnt b living to please everybody but i myself is doing it every single day. keeping my sorrow as far as possible from every possible eyes dat may b seeing me.

i hate myself for being me. being me jus makes me more sicker as my body siriusly cant take it. protecting n defending n taking in all e pain for e ppl i love n care is somehow my duty n seeing dem happy makes me happy even though letting dem go but ders still hurt n idk how but my heart still hasnt give up so........ pls don take me 4 granted n pls bear in mind dat im very fragile like a glass. 

cant say how much i luv you ppl n pls don let me down

FUCK LAH

wth is rong wif all dis ppl? dey don wan to study den get lost lah fuck lah u ppl. u all onli noe how fuck oth ppl's life onli. u wanna go down den go down by ureself lah don bring oths wif u. i reli nid mr lim 4 my physics kay!!!!! u all don like him so? idc! i don give a damn!!! i wan to hav distictions u noe!! u all wan to blacken ure future, go ahead im not stopping u but don bring me down. n siallah 1st physics den social studies. wtf?! n to oths im asking stupid questions but having 2 ppl blocking my view n r all over each oth n talking across me is e reason y. i was even called out to c misschua after lesson bout dat. wth do u tink im feeling?!?!?!?! i don tink its worth my holidays to spend time wif mfbs like u ppl n still nid to cock up $2. spending time wif ppl dat r currrently destrying my life by not allowing tchers to teach.

pls lah everybody hav probs but don nid to act like an asshole lah. tink too highly of ureself rite? wat type of leader r u? u talk wen tchers r talking n in e end can still say we all not supportive?wtf?! everybody else also hav sooo much probs. idc ah bout u ppl anymore n btw my parents even disallow me to go 4 e stupid  bbq.

so sorie to ppl dat i hurt 2day because of my bad mood.  luv ya all

amirah sayang!! tank u sooo much 4 listening to me complain bout my suckish life n some how advise me. it was nice to noe dat someone had been in my shoes n understands me wen nobody else can understand my situation.

amani u noe evertin bout my probs but sometimes u don understand wat im gg thru cause u ureself had never been thru. so some tings r jus so hard to tell ya.

btw today i talked to him!!!! ouh my gosh tkleh angkat babe!!! bleh pengsan aku hahaha. amani kau ehk tk baik seh dah lah aku ngah gabra abeh kau tingalkan aku sorang. lagi tkleh angkat smpai aku tersalah salah ckp kau!!!

anw i luv u all n hope we can be frens 4 my whole lifetime.  ahhh i jus luv u all btw lina sori tk spend time ngan kau. ill make up 4 dat soon kays? ilyt

last nite i found smth out n shld i say its expected? hhhmmmm...... no idea

i was shocked but not shocked ahhh nvm if u understand den understand but if u don den wat am i suppose to do?

e confession was hard n i was blushing n lmao wen confessing to my dear bout my dear hahaha

ehk amirah i noe u noe i noe haahah

today woke up at 7 study den go hq take koto  come home ader kenduri sia like f***

amirah malu ah aku hahaha

rmbr e possibilities?

today was ok in skool

we had pet rocket!!!! had soooo much funnnn

der was 1 time syafiqah asked me "Aishah wat's ure pet name?"

i tink 4 a while but nth came to mind so i jus said "ummmm.... pet"

n dey were laughing hahaha

btw i translated an english song to malay hahaha. u noe e rihanna song, rehab ?

sing dat in malay! i tell u wat to sing.. look below....... ouh yah i translate it myself n 1st part only

sayang, sayang

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tk pernah ku rasa sekuat ini

kau seperti kekasih

dan kawan baik ku

semua dibungkus jadi satu

dengan reben kat atas

dah tu jer hahahahhahaaha

bb ppl i wan go to sleep